Wow – it´s been a while. I think life just got to me. I have not written anything for almost exactly two months, and in the short life of The Balancing Soul I have never had such a long break. But When the Tough get´s going….. – the going get´s tough.
I guess This post could start something like – Im so sorry that I have not been writing….
–but the thing is – im not! As I wrote life got to me – And I was unable to rush the place I was and still is in.
The last few month has been pretty difficult in many ways with illness in my closest family, some hard choices to make and just overload on work. Sometimes it´s been hard to feel myself and my own needs has not been prioritized.
I have so many beautiful tools that I have learned over the years and that I use in my day-to-day life to stay grounded. But I was too exhausted from pushing my way through everyday and holding my head just above the surface. But it´s OK! Going through difficult times is what makes us grow as people. There is a reason why we sometimes have to endure. It makes us understand ourselves better and through that we become stronger, more valuable and more whole.
A few days ago one of my wise mentors suggested me to work around the theme of going from performance to just being. It hit me pretty hard – but in a good way. Its time to melt a little to not care so much about my performance. And to know that even if the work I do help others get better its OK to feel like shit yourself sometimes, because everybody is dynamic in how they feel. It’s impossible to always be on top of the game.
To yet again begin to take more time off – write again – dance again – beeing again.
To start realigning my body with the energy that surrounds me and allow my self to loose control. Because loosing control is a relief. It´s where new inspiration grows.
The sun and light are coming back and the future looks bright. It feels good to be back writing and sharing my thoughts with you.
Love and light,